F was supposed to fetch me today,

But shit happens. As usual :/

Today was fun; I hope my team didn't evaluate me badly. (lol)

I've been dead beat lately. I’m gonna sleep soon, can’t take it any longer.

Boy, meet you again soon. (and you know what’s frustrating? We can really meet, like really really have a proper meet up on Wednesday and Fridays � well since I’m with my family most of the weekends -, and that still depends. One good example would be today.)

I really need to let this out, in order for me to be able to focus and study. I need to do a lot of things BY THE WAY. I need to study for UT. My classmates are all so smart, it’s intimidating! But before all that, I need to breathe! F*ing breathe.

I’ve never felt so fucked up in a long time. Is there such a thing as post-menstruation or whatever? Like you feel so tired, lethargic for a few days? Seriously! I’ve been feeling tired lately. Especially mentally and physically. School’s so tiring lately! It drained me.

I think I’ve been slacking a lot lately. In fact, ever since the start of Semester 2. I really need to get back on track, focus on my studies and put effort in my work. I think there’s more that I’m capable of I’ve yet to use my full potential. Sigh.

Life’s such a challenge.

People have to constantly remind me to study and work hard, ‘cause I tend to lose the motivation and enthusiasm in a short period of time.

I’m such a disgrace. I’m so lazy.

Friend: I truly see myself being a beggar on the streets in years to come

Me: OKAY. if u see urself as a beggar in future, I become the mat you sit on k.

I’m sorry I think so lowly of myself, but that’s the way it is.

I want to knock my head against the wall right now! DAMN

& I’m missing you badly.

I can’t wait for UT and POL-ITE to be done. HEH.

): I can't find a picture of me with my parents, but I have

 

Enjoy eh ayah? Hmph! Now, what should I get? lol

and this reminds me of my O Level Art, really.

   

J: Help me call Faci with your sweet voice.

OH MY GOD. I’m feeling somnolent, can just fall asleep anytime. But I have to continue this post. I want to update about my 17^th BIRTHDAY No. I have to, before my memory starts fading and the details starts to diminish. So,(I don’t know what/where to begin with..)

Well, I had cakes, balloons and those strings; I don’t know what they’re called...

Yeah close. But not like that. (I wish.)

Despite my birthday, I had to go to Woodlands alone, as my Bs was late, only to find out they actually dressed up from head to toe. How cute? Both of them wore dress and had French braids thinking/hoping I’d wear the same thing, dress the same way. Unfortunately, I didn’t. :/

Lesson and class was as per normal. I thought my class wouldn’t get me a cake or anything, since we already celebrated a few birthdays recently, and I’m fine with that. (:

During 1^st break, my Bs surprised me by coming to my class with a strawberry cheesecake.      

During 2^nd break, Shawn and Ali insisted I follow them down for break as they wanted to get me a cake. I chose Oreo Cheesecake and believe me; I haven’t eaten it till now.

And here comes the climax.
When we were going back to class, I saw some balloons in the classroom from the glass panel. (Note, all these happened in less than 5 seconds) I said to myself, “Ah, they probably JUST put those balloons as decorations for my birthday, nothing more.”

Before I could think further, I couldn’t remember but either one, Ali or Shawn opened the door and when I entered,

“SURPRISE!” or

“HAPPY BIRTHDAY!”

Again, I can’t remember what it is.

I saw my E35G! A whole bunch of them! You don’t know how much I missed them and was so happy to see everyone together(not all tho)! I couldn’t hold back my emotions. Tears of joy. They totally made my day. I miss each and every one of them.

(ugh I’m tired. And this is boring. I can’t find the right words to say and to express how I really felt on my birthday. I’m not good at words. I seriously can’t express my gratitude. They’re beyond words.)

Happy 17th, Moon! We made you cry, woo hoo, we made you cry! Cos there are surprises, and then there are SURPRISES. We love you and you deserve the best surprises ever, babe :D

To be continued... I really need to sleep.
Time check: 3:36AM

And here I am now, continuing this post. 8:26PM

I just got back from lunch with mum and bro @ LJ (but too bad, I didn’t have the appetite) and I did some shopping at my sorta favourite shop cause I’d have add discounts on my birthday month. Caught in the rain. Tsk. -.-

So, I’m also touched with all that E36P had done for me � the decorations, the Brownies cake etc � you guys are surprisingly sweet. (:

No worries babies, you guys will always be in my heart. � Bulan

In the afternoon-evening, I spent my time with F. We planned so much, so much that we can’t fulfil them due to time constrain. So much of pool and bowling and more. We ended up having dessert at Gelare.

After which, all I know is that F planned to surprise me, inviting some of my friends, my girls, I swear I don’t know who he invited! But seems like people know about it. But ofcourse it failed.

When I got home, some IMed me, apologizing to me because they couldn’t make it. And I didn’t know what they meant. -.-

HAHAH Only Nic, Tiara and Flinz made it while Zel had night class. But it still hell of a day and night! I was shagged.

(I love you F. I come to realized you’re sweet in your own way, and I must appreciate that. I know you are trying. I can see it, and I’m happy. Thanks for all the effort that you put in. Ah cliché much, love you. )

THANK YOU

Notice I didn’t mention anything about my family? Yeah, ‘cause we didn’t celebrate or anything. Yeah not even a mini one. But whatever, my mum’s excused, she’s been buying me a lot of stuff, and I totally appreciate it. Not asking for more. Love you mum, I’ll try my best not to be lazy. :/ My dad, you’re excused too. Everyone’s excused la. But...

THIS PARTICULAR THING THAT I’M GONNA SAY IS UNACCEPTABLE! My family can’t stop eating my food! Stop it you guys! My cake! My brownies! My muffins! GRH!

They’re all nice you see? So they simply can’t resist them.

NADIA MOO, THANKS SO MUCH FOR THE BROWNIES! THEY’RE AMAZING, LIKE YOU! I LOVE IT, MY PARENTS LOVE IT, AND EVERYONE LOVES IT! LOVE YOU

YIPENG, THANKS FOR THE MUFFIN! UNFORTUNATELY I DIDN’T GET TO TASTE ALL OF THEM BECAUSE MY FAMILY ATE THEM UP. :/  

F, THANKS FOR THE CAKE. MY PARENTS LOVE IT, ESPECIALLY MY DAD, AND IT’S RARE OF HIM TO SAY THAT. I LOVE IT TOO! :D

E36P, THANKS FOR THE BROWNIES, THEY’RE HEAVENLY. (:

FAD AND SAI, THANKS FOR THE MASK. THOUGH I REALLY DON’T KNOW WHEN I’M GONNA WEAR IT. BUT I’LL SHOW YOU HOW I MADE GOOD USE OF IT! ;)

Next, look out for my Post-Birthday Entry.

OH GOD, UT1’s in a few days time. STUDY STUDY!
Oh btw, I found a good place to get materials to pimp my phone! AWESOME.

Thank you my loved ones.
I'll post again soon in detail, tonight or tomorrow. :D
You guys are awesome! mmmmwah