No wonder he was pissed for two days,bro broke a $2000 cage. :/

I lack proper posts huh? I know.

Aiseh. I’m either busy or just too lazy for 5/7 of the week, and weekends, I’m just probably lazy or lazier.

Seriously, for 5 days every week, I would be busy with school and by the time I reach home, I’d be tired. Thus, I deeply appreciate holidays, even a one day off, like this coming Friday (HR Haji). Semester 2 has been exhausting. I don’t really know why. My lack of sleep plays a part. I have about 5hours or less of sleep daily. The distance of RP plays a part too. The distance affects how early I have to wake up, and the energy required travelling to and fro every day.

I reckon the competition in class is a factor too. Since we are all in the same school (hospitality), it is a challenge, because everyone’s good. And it is believed that SOH students are harder working, have longer RJs etc. And that’s a challenge okay.

Every day is like a battle, and I’ll be shagged at the end of it. It’s a whole vicious cycle. I know as compared to my classmates, I’m nothing. But seriously, I’m trying my best. But I’m doing all these for my future, and I know it would be worth it. To think again, I’d rather go through this hard phase rather than not using my full potential, slack and have a not so bright future. Regretting would then be pointless.

I mean, our future is all that matters huh. After all, I want to be successful individually. Such that, I can still live without a man. I think, having a man is a different thing, it’s like a bonus. (Like you know, if you heavily depend on your educated husband, not like he would be there forever.) In adversity, you still have to survive on your own.

On a totally non-related note,
my faci said “Marriage won’t change a person.” “You must not think you have the capability to change a person.”  Like tell me about it. :/

It sorta woke me up and got me thinking, and scared. Sigh. He is partly right (I guess).

I gtg. Wash my face, pack my stuff. Choose my clothes. Go to bed. Wake up the next day. The same damn things.

See how sucky my days are? I really need to thank my girls, friends, classmates for making school more enjoyable. I can’t imagine going through a day without you guys. Seriously.  I DIE.

As for my health, I’m not in my best state. I have been coughing for like a week? I think I freak people out. I can’t stop coughing, and my classmates will be like

“Are you alright?”
“Why are you crying?” I coughed so badly, I tear. Like you know, when you choke; your eyes will get watery and stuff?
“Why is your face red?” I just can’t stop coughing.

I miss people.
I miss secondary school days, and the people I meet.
I miss my E35Gs.
I miss Hanis and Sham.
I miss Nicole, Tiara, Hazel, Flinda, Rameza!
I miss my boyfriend.
I miss everybody actually.

Sigh. Things change over time. I hate changes.
I miss E35G and I meant it. The atmosphere and everything.
My new class is different. Not that its bad but I prefer E35G.

Anyways;
It comforts me, being able to get in touch with my friends, and Nad.
Unfortunately, everyone's pretty messed up now.
I feel hopeless 'cause I really can't help much.

             

(hahaha the picture)
Miss you.

F*, was late for school.