I really need to let this out, in order for me to be able to focus and study. I need to do a lot of things BY THE WAY. I need to study for UT. My classmates are all so smart, it’s intimidating! But before all that, I need to breathe! F*ing breathe.

I’ve never felt so fucked up in a long time. Is there such a thing as post-menstruation or whatever? Like you feel so tired, lethargic for a few days? Seriously! I’ve been feeling tired lately. Especially mentally and physically. School’s so tiring lately! It drained me.

I think I’ve been slacking a lot lately. In fact, ever since the start of Semester 2. I really need to get back on track, focus on my studies and put effort in my work. I think there’s more that I’m capable of I’ve yet to use my full potential. Sigh.

Life’s such a challenge.

People have to constantly remind me to study and work hard, ‘cause I tend to lose the motivation and enthusiasm in a short period of time.

I’m such a disgrace. I’m so lazy.

Friend: I truly see myself being a beggar on the streets in years to come

Me: OKAY. if u see urself as a beggar in future, I become the mat you sit on k.

I’m sorry I think so lowly of myself, but that’s the way it is.

I want to knock my head against the wall right now! DAMN

& I’m missing you badly.

I can’t wait for UT and POL-ITE to be done. HEH.